[FONT=verdana][SIZE=3]I remember the first time a guy ate my ass and it was the weirdest thing I'd experienced. We'd run into each other, started talking, things turned to sex... then boy/boy sex... and we go to his place and things were going "as usual" as we kinda cuddled - licking and sucking on nipples, ears, necks, before turning our attention to each other's cock. I knew he was gonna fuck me then be fucked by me and I was so very hot and bothered - I wanted him inside me and he couldn't get there fast enough - but I didn't want to put any pressure on him. He sucks me off, holding my dick deep in his mouth as I lost my load and I had refrained from sucking him off so he could fuck me; he tells me to turn over and I'm thinking, "Oh, yeah... this is what I've been waiting for!" He spreads my ass cheeks and I'm shivering in anticipation, expected to feel the coolness of the lube that was sitting on his side table - and the next thing I feel is his tongue probing my hole! I remember my body stiffening for a moment as my brain worked out what he was doing - he's licking and sucking my asshole and it was such a weird and unexpected sensation that it was all I could do not to start laughing.[/SIZE][/FONT]
My 2019 reading list: Green Odyssey - Philip Jose Farmer Where The Hell Is Tesla - Rob Dirks The Gone-Away World - Nick Harkaway Don’t Touch The Blue Stuff - Rob Dirks The Accidental Time Machine - Joe Haldeman Dragon’s Egg - Robert L. Forward An Absolutely Remarkable Thing: A Novel - Hank Green Stars Uncharted - S.K. Dunstall Twenty Thousand Leagues Under the Sea - Jules Verne The Strange Case Of Dr. Jekyll and Mr. Hyde - Robert Lewis Stephenson Revelation Space - Alastair Reynolds Reincarnation Blues: A Novel - Michael Poore Enlightenment Now: The Case for Reason, Science, Humanism and Progress - Steven Pinker Chasm City- Alastair Reynolds Nova - Samuel R. Delaney classic Stars In My Pocket Like Grains Of Sand - Samuel R. Delany Redemption Ark - Alastair Reynolds The Great Wall Of Mars - Alastair Reynolds Gate Crashers - Patrick S. Tomlinson meh Tiamat’s Wrath - James S.A. Corey How To Be A Stoic - Massimo Pigliucci Absolution Gap - Alastair Reynolds War of the Spheres - B.V. Larson and James D. Millington Galactic North - Alastair Reynolds Diamond Dogs And Turquoise Days- Alastair Reynolds Salvation - Peter F. Hamilton House of Suns - Alastair Reynolds The History of the Ancient World - Susan Wise Bauer (great) Outland - Dennis E. Taylor Merlin’s Gun - Alastair Reynolds Alien III - movie script - William Gibson Fall, Or Dodge In Hell: A Novel - Neal Stephenson (meh) DMT: The Spirit Molecule - Rick Strassman QuickSilver - Neal Stephenson Pushing Ice - Alastair Reynolds The Confusion - Neal Stephenson Thud! - Terry Pratchett Gigi Make Paradox, Where The Hell Is Tesla, Book 3 - Rob Dircks (meh) The Prefect - Alastair Reynolds Elysium Fire - Alastair Reynolds Revenger - Alastair Reynolds Shadow Captain - Alastair Reynolds Terminal World - Alastair Reynolds The System Of The World - Neal Stephenson Blue Remembered Earth - Alastair Reynolds On The Steel Breeze - Alastair Reynolds Poseidon’s Wake - Alastair Reynolds Cryptonomicon - Neal Stephenson Octavia Gone (Alex Benedict, #8) - Jack McDevitt (meh) Troika / The One Man And The Martian Sea - Alastair Reynolds Contact - Carl Sagan Autonomous: A Novel - Annalee Newitz Wolverine: The Long Night - Marvel and Stitcher Barbary Station - R. E. Stearns Velocity Weapon - Megan O’Keefe meh Cage Of Souls - Adrian Tchaikovsky Mutiny On Vesta - R. E. Stearns PlanetSide - Michael Mammay SpaceSide - Michael Mammay How To: Absurd Scientific Advice For Common Real-World Problems - Randal Munroe The Algebraist - Ian M. Banks The Knowledge: How To Rebuild Our World From Scratch - Lewis Dartnell The Wall - John Lanchester The Milk Lady Of Bangalore - Shoba Narayan The History of the Decline and Fall of the Roman Empire, Volume 3 - Edward Gibbon Quantum Space - Douglas Philips - fun Accelerando - Charles Stross - funny Early Riser - Jasper Fforde Quantum Void - Douglas Philips Pandemic - A.G. Riddle Genome - A.G. Riddle Futuristic Violence And Fancy Suits - David Wong Departure - A.G. Riddle - meh Cold Storage - David Koepp World War Z - Max Brooks The Hydrogen Sonata (Culture #10) - Ian M. Banks Finder - Suzanne Palmer New Eden - Kishore Tipinemi The Atlantis Gene - A.G. Riddle The Atlantis Plague - A.G. Riddle The Origins Of Everything In 100 Pages (More Or Less) - David Bercovici The War Of The Worlds - Radio Recreation- H. G. Wells (L.A. Theater adaption) The Atlantis World - A.G. Riddle The Three-Body Problem - Cixin Liu The Dark Forest - Cixin Liu The Fifth Elephant, Discworld 24 - Terry Pratchett Small Gods, Discworld 13 - Terry Pratchett Mort, Discworld 4 - Terry Pratchett Death’s End - Cixin Liu Night Watch, Discworld 29 - Terry Pratchett Guards! Guards!, Discworld 8 - Terry Pratchett A Short History Of Nearly Everything - Bill Bryson Men At Arms, Discworld 15 - Terry Pratchett Feet Of Clay, Discworld 19 - Terry Pratchett Jingo, Discworld 21 - Terry Pratchett Reaper Man, Discworld 11 - Terry Pratchett Breakthrough - Michael C. Grumley Soul Music, Discworld 16 - Terry Pratchett Auboror - James S.A. Corey Leap - Michael C. Grumley (#100) Hogfatherm Discworld 29 - Terry Pratchett This Is How You Lose The Time War - Amal El-Mohtar, Max Gladstone Walking to Aldeberon - Adrian Tchaikovsky - fun Entanglement - Gerald Kilby The Enceladus Mission - Brandon Q. Morris Entropy - Gerald Kilby The Thief Of Time, Discworld 26 - Terry Pratchett Equal Rites, Discworld 3 - Terry Pratchett Evolution - Gerald Kilby The Light Brigade - Kameron Hurley - ok Witches Abroad, Discworld 12 - Terry Pratchett The Stars Are Legion - Kameron Hurley Lords and Ladies, Discworld 14 - Terry Pratchett Colony One Mars - Gerald M. Kilby - meh Maskerade, Discworld 18 - Terry Pratchett Carpe Jugulum, Discworld 23 - Terry Pratchett The Titan Probe - Brandon Q. Morris Sourcery, Diskworld 5 - Terry Pratchett - #118
Sexuality is something I feel I had struggled with all my life. Born in the 70's, all I wanted to be is normal like everyone else so I denied and suppressed anything that wasn't considered the norm, however feelings and desires kept popping in to my mind (both waking and sleeping fantasies), some of which I was happy to have, others, ashamed and it lead to an unhappy and confusing life, both sexually and mentally. I went through stages thinking I could be gay, others, straight, but didn't know what I was and it never occurred that I was somewhere in between as back then you were either straight or gay. Since puberty I think I always realised deep down that I wasn't straight but realisation and acceptance are very much two different things. Once I made the decision to accept and embrace my sexual orientation, all the events and feelings throughout my life suddenly made sense. They should've made sense straight away but the stigma and lack of acceptance around bisexuality and basically any orientation that isn't straight was a contributing factor and still is today so like many, I remain in the closet. Self acceptance is important for one's mental health and I am better for doing so. I'm far more happy now than I've been in a very long time. Accepting didn't mean I had to tell anyone it was just acknowledging that which most with same sex tendancies have felt for a long time, different and there's nothing wrong with being different. Everyone is different. Acceptance removed the shame and guilt I felt for having these desires or after I masturbated to same sex fantasies or gay porn. The shame was very real for me but I realised you can only fight nature for so long, nature always wins. I was born this way. What was needed for me to start the journey, and it has been a journey was a catalyst. My catalyst was feeling a strong attraction to a friend but what helped me accept my sexuality was to put it all in writing, from the beginning to the end, answer questions of my sexual desires and feelings and what I want from my remaining years truthfully and once I did so, it wasn't difficult to see. I thought I would feel different and in some ways I do, I feel normal. Bisexual is my normal. I love being bisexual, it gives me a sense of pride I've not had. I feel truly lucky. I believe there are many more men and women stuck in limbo just like I was who will hopefully one day find their feet. Everyone's journey is different but I hope this helps someone.
Updated Dec 31, 2019 at 11:17 PM by zbi73
[SIZE=3][FONT=verdana]My protege and I talk about this a lot... and he cracks me up when he talks about what he prefers and I'm not sure he doesn't understand why I don't have preferences other than being able to get my dick hard and it winds up getting soft. We talked about his preference for Black and other non-white men and how this preference pretty much guarantees that he's not going to have all the sex that's possible for him to have.[/FONT] [FONT=verdana]He said to me, "But you like white guys!" and I said, "Yes - they taste better for some reason... doesn't mean I wouldn't suck a Black guy's cock - and you gotta know I've done that a lot - or any other guy's cock and no matter what the color of his skin is. It's really about what kind of person he is and, okay, I guess you can say that I "prefer" someone I can get along with - but that's not a preference - that's just common sense."[/FONT] [FONT=verdana]Do I prefer to swallow? C'mon, really? Fact: I've swallowed more sperm than I have spit out and, for me, if you're gonna suck a guy's dick and make him cum, uh, why not swallow it, you know, if that's what you feel like doing? And sometimes, I just don't feel like it or want to - maybe I just want to get him to the point of release and watch the sperm flowing out of him... and get a "big head" because I made him do it.[/FONT] [FONT=verdana]What positions do I prefer? Whichever one works and gets the job done and provided I can physically tolerate it. Again, it's common sense to me wanting to be comfortable but understanding that I might not be... because sex can be pretty damned uncomfortable. It just is what it is. Now, hmm, being in the missionary position isn't fun for me; I learned a long time ago that my legs and hips just "refuse" to work that way... but I've been fucked in that position anyway and it's been good or bad - nothing unusual happening her. If a guy say, "Turn over..." okay, that works because it just works and it might be uncomfortable.[/FONT] [FONT=verdana]But it's still the sex I prefer.[/FONT] [FONT=verdana]Do women suck cock better or do men suck better? Yes. And no. Not everyone can master sucking dick and I've had amazing blow jobs from both men and women. Do I prefer one over the other? No - where's the sense in that? I love having my dick sucked... so why would I limit my opportunities to be sucked by having a preference that I know doesn't make any real difference?[/FONT][/SIZE]
[FONT=verdana][SIZE=3]I learned to be color-blind in this just as I learned not to be superficial. The size of a guy's dick doesn't mean a damned thing to me - it's what he was born with - duh. Otherwise, what kind of person is he? That's not so much of a preference as it is, to me, just common sense given that one would not be of a mind to have sex with someone they're at odds with and at every level... but, yeah, sure - I can have sex with someone I don't like because it's not really about them so much as it is about having sex. Which is the thing I prefer. Do I prefer a FWB? Interesting in establishing an LTR? Uh, not really - whatever happens is gonna happen and now it's a matter of whether or not - bluntly and honestly - I wanna be bothered with it. If that's the way it happens, fine; if not, it's no big deal because I understand - and if others aren't of a mind to - that some guys and even gals are just about the sex. Let's get naked and do some shit to make each other orgasm and cum - how hard is that? I mean, really, who among us doesn't "prefer" this? I've come to have a dislike of the word "preference." It's limiting, often too nitpicky for my sensibilities. Yes, there are things I like doing and things that I don't and, yes, sometimes, I have reason to do some of the things I don't like doing... because it's sex and, well, needs must. My list of things I won't do for any reason is pretty short... because it has to be short and because I've learned that having a long list of things I won't do - and having some very specific preferences - only results in me not being able to have sex.[/SIZE][/FONT]
[FONT=verdana][SIZE=3]What I prefer is to have sex and I'm not really that picky about whether the person I'm having sex with is male or female. Do I prefer women sucking my dick or men? And when I say, "Yes!" why are some people baffled to learn that I don't give a fuck who is sucking my dick as long as they're sucking it? What kind of guy do you prefer? That's easy - the guy who isn't my idea of an asshole and one that I might have to punch in the face. What kind of dick do you prefer? Um, that'll be the one that's safe to play with and it works although I'll admit that I have a "problem" with uncut dicks but I learned to put it behind me... because it's a dick and it can be sucked. Do I prefer to only suck dick? Yes... and no - it depends. In my life, if there's something two men can do to, for, and with each other, I've probably done it and if there's something I haven't done, it's probably because I don't want - or need - to do it. Still, I don't see this as being much of a preference than it is just a thing I've really found to my liking and is a lot of fun to do. I've fucked men and I've been fucked by men and I've either liked it or I haven't - but it's all in line with the one and only real preference: Having sex. Being that intimate with someone while they're being that intimate with me. Eating pussy and fucking it; sucking dick, fucking a guy, being fucked by a guy. Any real preferences here? Not from where I'm sitting since it always comes down to how I'm feeling, what I think/feel I need in the moment. [/SIZE][/FONT]
[FONT=verdana][SIZE=3]One of the things that has driven me batty has been people asking me what I prefer and in that very annoying "this or that" kind of way. Do I prefer men over women? Women more than men? If it can be asked, I've probably been asked what I prefer and being put into a position to pick one thing over the other and, to be honest, I've gotten sick and tired of trying to explain to people that, for me, being bisexual isn't an "either/or" kind of thing. It's men [B]and[/B] women; it's pussy [B]and[/B] dick - how hard is that to understand? Are you a top or a bottom? Well, that depends and mostly on how I'm feeling at any given moment... and I don't know why some people find this to be unusual. Do you like sucking cock more or eating pussy? Seriously? Both are the shit as far as I'm concerned. Okay, yeah, sure - I like eating pussy more than I do sucking dick... but the differences between the two things are so slim that it's not even worth making a fuss over. It's not about what I prefer to do: It's about whatever I want to do.[/SIZE][/FONT]
I travel a lot for work and when I get home we often talk about who and when we last had sex with another. Both she and I are very bisexual and we are not shy about it. So talking last night I asked her besides me who is your favorite when I'm gone and she immediately said she loved them all but there is one that really rocks her world. Of the 3 regular guys I took a guess and guessed right, it was my black buddy. his monster 10 inch cock destroys her tiny pussy. Smothering her face with his cock and balls I too am amazed at how much of that massive cock she can slide down her throat. He is a very heavy cummer and sometimes his juice leaks out her nose and she coughs cum. Then she asked me who my favorite was, her friend Loren is a long time friend of hers and the 2 of them have been licking each others pussy for years, this lady is mostly lesbian but enjoys a good dick once in a while. But she is addicted to cum more so than the wife, and craves it. While fucking her I have never been with a women who squirts like she does, and as she squirts that really turns me on and I fuck her harder and she squirts harder she is amazing. But she won't let me cum in her, she swallows me every time, it takes a lot for someone to give better head than the wife but she is incredible at it. I have spent whole weekends with her many times and she is not shy about where she does it, one time it was in a dressing room at old navy.