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[SIZE=3][FONT=verdana]By the time most of us turned 13, the interest in doing each other was waning as attentions turn toward girls. Some of us had moved out of the neighborhood that was the genesis of our sexual awakening and, to my dismay, I was one of the guys who'd left for another part of the city but it was good to go back to the old hood to visit those who remained but sad to see that of the ten of us who were fully into this, only two guys remained.[/FONT]

[FONT=verdana]The new hood, in the projects, was so different and while I was "well-traveled" as a young man and was used to meeting new people, adjusting to this new area was different and, early on, the guys who were already established there just had to test the new guy - me - and I had to earn their respect, usually by fighting when they tried to bully me but by this point in my life, I'd just gotten my purple belt in judo and was quickly moving up the ranks in karate so those guys found out that I was that quiet guy you didn't want to mess with.[/FONT]

[FONT=verdana]The "hardest" part was adjusting to this new... climate. These guys just weren't interested in fucking and they certainly wasn't bashful about what they'd want to do but since sucking dick was my second favorite thing to do, making the adjustment wasn't all that difficult but if I wanted to feel a hard dick in my ass, I had to leave our hood in order to be able to do that.[/FONT]

[FONT=verdana]So there was plenty of dick to suck but it still amazed me how invisible these guys were and how they managed to remain invisible despite having the nerve to suck dick anywhere they could including the park that was right across the street and, shockingly, even in the public pool and it didn't matter how many people were there. I remember one really hot day where pretty much every kid in the hood was in the pool; I was lounging along the side of the pool, looking at all the people having fun when one of the "regular" guys swam up to me, spoke, and immediately dived under the water, yanked my trunks down, and started sucking me. Of course he had to come up for air but he kept at it until I'd shot my load into his mouth.[/FONT]

[FONT=verdana]I was kinda stunned by this and more so since there were so many people around us. He stood next to me smiling and asked, "You up for this?" No way I was gonna chicken out and not match his boldness so I learned that sucking cock underwater was... trying but not undoable. It was weirdly fun to be underwater, his fairly large cock in my mouth and there are kids swimming by and, as far as I knew, wasn't paying any attention to what was going on. Then again, I also found out that a favorite pastime was to "swim" with a girl, moving through the pool with your dick buried deep in her coochie until you nutted so that was yet another slick trick I had to learn as well.[/FONT]

[FONT=verdana]Our neighborhood was 100% Black and while there were some cock suckers there, eh, I was somewhat disappointed that none of those guys with really nice dicks wanted to slide it into my ass and make it messy... but I had friends in other parts of the city who wouldn't hesitate to fuck me and, interestingly enough, they were all white.

Hmm. This distinction hadn't really dawned on me until we moved to this new hood; because I spent parts of my summer going away for camp and being the only Black kid in the group I lived with, wow, I really liked being with these guys because whenever we weren't doing the camp activities we'd signed up for, we were fucking and sucking each other like the world was gonna end any moment now. The moment our counselor left for the night, the dicks would come out to be sucked off and then inserted into eager backsides.

I thought the guys I grew up with were crazy for dick... but they had nothing on these white kids! For years, I'd go to camp and would wind up having to endure white kids literally chasing me down to have sex and it got pretty annoying after a while but, nah, I didn't complain one bit. Those kids were amazing cock suckers and many of them preferred to be fucked. A typical cabin had eight guys (including me) and of the seven remaining, I could count on two of them who'd fuck me which was fine and dandy.

You can guess that I seriously looked forward to going to camp every year, huh? It was like going to "heaven."

I have to confess that the highlight of my teen years as a bi guy was the night - and only time - I ever got busted. If there was a guy I could count on without fail to want to do the nasty, it was my only brother and probably the main reason why the sex drought never bothered me because if no one else wanted to do it with me, he most certainly did and even though we both knew that incest was about as wrong as anything got, um, it didn't stop us from doing it anyway.

It wasn't unusual for him to wake me up in the middle of the night and ask, "Hey... you wanna do it?" Or, at some point during the day, he'd let me know that he'd want to do it that night and it finally occurred to me that he liked dick and ass more than I did, if that was even possible. He had stayed in touch with the guys he hung out with in the old hood - they had also moved but not that far from us - so I knew that the three of them spent a lot of time doing it to each other and, one day, I actually got to sit in and watch them go at it before they finally asked me, "Are you just gonna sit there and watch?"

Those dudes were crazy. Anyway...

One night - and as usual - he woke me up and said, "I really need to do it, okay?" I was all for it and it didn't take us long to start out as we usually did - sucking each other off. After we did that, it was time to fuck and after a good glob of Vaseline was applied, I sighed happily to feel his cock slip into me and settled into be fucked, just letting my mind wander thinking about how good it felt - and how terribly wrong it was but the moment I felt his dick shooting his load into me, I forgot all about that pretty quick.

We changed places and I slid into him and he actually giggled - but I was used to hearing him do that. It was getting good; we were both moaning, he's whispering how good my dick feels in his ass when, suddenly, I hear, "What the hell are you doing?!"

Oh, shit. I jumped up and there's our mother and if looks could kill, I was dead and I figured that she was gonna kill me just the same. She dragged me out of the room and I steeled myself to get the worst beating of all time... but instead, she lectured me about how wrong that was, that I was old enough to know better, and that I shouldn't have made my brother do this very bad thing. In my defense - such as it was - I tried to tell her that it was his idea... because was but, of course, she wasn't hearing any of it. She told me that she understood that boys wanted to have sex but I should use my hand instead of what she caught me doing.

And I was, strangely, pissed because as she read me the riot act, I couldn't stop thinking about the fact that if she had burst into our room just a couple of minutes earlier, she would have caught my brother fucking me and then I got even madder to think that even if she had, being the oldest, I still would have been blamed for instigating the whole thing.

She told me to take my ass back to bed and went back to bed herself; my brother was still in his bed, still quite naked and he didn't have to ask me what she said because he'd heard every word of it and he was just as surprised as I was that she didn't beat me within an inch of my life - then stop. I kinda just sat on my bed, fuming about what she said when my brother asked, "Hey... are you gonna finish what you started?"

Sure, why not? I slid back into his ass and fucked him and without giving a single thought to the fact that our mom could come back in and catch us again but she didn't which was fine because I wanted him to fuck me again which he was very happy to do. The next morning, I had expected to get chewed out some more about getting caught fucking my brother... but nothing else was said.

In later years, my brother and I would talk about that night; sometimes we'd laugh about it, sometimes we'd talk about how getting caught could have gone very wrong for me. He'd say, "I don't know what the big deal is - it's not like you made me do it, ya know? I wanted to do it!"

And, usually, when we had this conversation, "Hey, let's do it!" would usually follow. The really funny thing about this is that when we weren't fucking and sucking each other silly, my brother and I usually couldn't stand being around each other and we'd fight like rabid dogs and I would seriously kick his ass every time. One day, we got to fighting over something stupid and our mother sent us to our room to cool off which, come to think about it, wasn't a smart move on her part because there wouldn't be anything stopping us from fighting in our room, was it?

Instead, we're sitting on our respective beds, glowering at each other with malicious intent... and he says, "I need that dick - you gonna give it to me?"

Of course I was and would; I was mad at him but I wasn't that made and, apparently, neither was he. We'd fight a lot... and "kissed and made up" a lot so much that it became a pattern for us for him to pick a fight with me, get beat up but, that night? Whole different story! I'd asked him about it one day and he just shrugged and said that he was aware of it, thought it was funny as hell, and said, "All I know is that when we fight and we do it, I just feel better."

I'd get older and look back at these times in my life and ask myself, "Do you feel bad about any of it now that you really understand it all?" And the answer was both yes... and no... because it just was what it was.[/FONT][/SIZE]

[FONT=verdana][SIZE=3]It became clear to me, oh, after maybe a couple of months of being immersed up to my eyeballs in having sex with guys, that sucking dick was the greatest thing since sliced bread... well, behind eating pussy. For one, it didn't take being a smart kid to figure out that the quickest thing two guys could do was to suck on each other's dick until stuff got shot; it just didn't take very long for that to happen and because, you know, being young, recovering from it only took a couple of minutes at best but the other thing that made it my favorite guy thing to do was that, sometimes, there was really either no time to fuck or nowhere to do it... but one could always find some partially secluded spot.

Whether it was with one guy or those occasions when most or all of the guys were present, the sex always started off with dicks being sucked. It wasn't a big secret that of the ten of us, the only guy more popular for sucking dick was the soon-to-be gay kid among us; otherwise, if a guy wanted to get sucked off and his sperm swallowed, I had a big target on me and one that I didn't mind a whole lot.

One day, I was hanging out with one of the guys, we'd gotten bored silly playing marbles (and more so since I took most of his favorite ones) and even I knew that it wouldn't take long for one of us to ask, "Do you wanna do it?" - it was just a question of which one of us would ask it first and he beat me to it by a a couple of seconds. Of course, the answer was yes but with a twist; he said that all he wanted to do was sucking because, um, he had gotten fucked by his older brother the other day and his butt was still sore.

As an aside, his older brother had a really, really big dick and I could sympathize with him because his brother had made my ass sore quite a few times.

We made our way to one of the many abandoned apartment buildings in our neighborhood, peeled out of our pants and underwear, and settled in for a lot of cock sucking... and it was so much fun that I felt lightheaded and giddy after we'd sucked each other off for the third time and in a very short period of time.

"You're really good at this," he said to me, his eyes looking just as glassy as mine felt.

"You're good, too," I said. "And you shoot a lot of stuff, too!"

"So do you!" he said, grinning at me. "Why do you like it so much?"

"I dunno... I just do," I said even as I tossed his question around in my head. "I'd rather do this than to fuck, not that fucking is bad but sometimes you don't feel like fucking."

"I know," he said, making a show of rubbing his butt. "But I really like the way you do it."

"Thanks," I said, feeling myself blush. "You ready to do it again?"

We kept at it until neither of us could get hard again and as I glanced at my trusty Timex when we were putting our bottom gear back on, I realized that we'd spent about an hour and a half cumming in each other's mouth. I didn't know it right at that moment, but the rest of my day outside would be spent sucking a lot of dicks and, shamelessly, a couple of adult dicks as well. While that was usually exciting, bleh, I'd often find myself being angry or disappointed because an adult would shoot his stuff... and that was that.

But my friend's question stuck in my mind as I literally went from one dick to the next - why did I like this so much? For one, it felt so good to have a guy's prick in my mouth and I was fascinated by how something could get so hard but feel so soft at the same time. For another, I loved the way guys would react as I sucked them, from telling me how good it felt, to fucking my mouth, right up to cussing - or trying to cuss - as they got closer to shooting - then the moment when they shot their stuff.

They'd lose control, shaking and shuddering, trying to fuck my mouth or, sometimes, they couldn't move at all except for me feeling their cock pulsing in my mouth. One of the things that made me really enjoy sucking dick was how much the guys appreciated the effort I'd make to get them to shoot; with the guys my age, it was fairly easy but with older guys - the teenagers and adults - it wasn't all that easy but I had learned to just keep at it until they filled my mouth with spunk.

The older guys would tell me that I put a lot of girls to shame with the way I sucked dick and while I didn't get a big head behind their words, well, it was nice to know because if they thought I was good at it, it would pretty much guarantee that I'd be sucking their dick again - and soon.

It wasn't that I'd given up fucking and being fucked... but like I had said, sometimes, you just didn't feel like it or sometimes you only had a small space of time to do something and it was the one thing two guys could do that lessened the chance of getting caught and since you didn't have to take off any clothes to do it, if you heard voices or footsteps, all you had to do was stuff it back in your pants and zip up - and if someone appeared, well, they might suspect something funny was going on but there wasn't any evidence of it.

And the good thing about sucking a dick until the guy shot was that you could easily make the real evidence disappear.

Because a lot of girls didn't want to fuck - they were deathly afraid of getting pregnant - if they didn't want to get fucked in the ass, they'd want their pussies eaten... and I was the go-to guy for this and the girls taught me how to be really good at eating them and making them get all tingly; being the really smart kid I was, it didn't take me long to see how eating pussy and sucking a guy's dick wasn't all that different; start slow and easy and then build up from there and, importantly, listen to what the girl would tell you about what you were doing.

That day, jeez, I must have sucked ten dicks and eaten five pussies (including my sister's, who was my biggest fan and "customer"); I remember coming home for dinner after being out and about all day doing this and not being really hungry - but I ate anyway because for me not to be ravenously hungry would have raised some suspicions that I was sick or something but, of course, the truth was I didn't have much of an appetite because my belly was quite full with all the spunk I'd swallowed and, um, my face and lips were kinda raw from the girls slamming their pussies against my face as I made them feel "really good" with my mouth and tongue.

I think my finest cock sucking moment came a few days later when all ten of us were hanging out and with the purpose to have sex; we'd decided that all we were gonna do was suck each other until we shot but with a twist: Everyone would take a turn at sucking everybody else's dick until they shot. It was such a "novel" idea that all ten of us were giggling like we were insane. And, by consensus, I was gonna be the guy to suck all those dicks first and I settled in to do just that - and that was the good part.

The bad part? By the time I got to the fifth guy, I had swallowed so much sperm that I actually threw it all up - it wasn't pretty being bent over and tossing my lunch in a corner and hearing the other guys being worried. But after I emptied the contents of my stomach and took some careful sips of soda we'd brought with us - sucking dick was very thirsty work, as we all knew - I went right back to sucking dick until the last guy was made to shoot.

My whole body was kinda hurting and my knees had left the building after the second guy but even getting them to lie down so I could suck the jizz out of them took a toll on my body so I was really glad to be able to stand up and stretch out the kinks as I waiting for my turn to fill a guy's mouth with my own spunk - and I really needed to that because my balls were really aching and had been since the first guy.

And after everyone had had a turn sucking dick, we started all over again - only this time, I didn't throw up the fruits of my efforts. The surprising thing - and something that I didn't really pay attention to until some time later - was that ten boys went two rounds of sucking everyone's dick and swallowing their stuff... and it only took two hours. We all had said that we could have gone to a third round... but we all had to be back home for lunch but, boy, wasn't that fun?

I remember going home for lunch and forcing myself to eat - I was so full of jizz it wasn't even funny. My mom had looked at me and asked if I was feeling okay - she was a nurse so there was no hiding anything from her like that - and I told her I was fine; I was just tired from all the running around I'd been doing. My sister, however, knew why I was looking "green around the gills" because, being one of the gang, she knew about our plans for that day.


She leaned over and whispered in my ear, "I hope you're not too tired - me and "Tammy" (one of her friends) need your attention, if ya know what I mean..."

I did know and while I was tired and achy, I forgot all about that because I was gonna get to eat some pussy and, if they wanted to, I was gonna fuck them or they'd suck my dick until I shot my stuff.

What a day...[/SIZE][/FONT]

[FONT=verdana][SIZE=3]Summer was always a good time for boys to be boys. Hanging out and doing things together or just being bored together would always seem to lend itself to having sex. Parents would toss us outside for the day with the warning to not get into trouble and, I dunno, I guess we all figured out that the best way to stay out of trouble was to go do something that, really, would get us into trouble but was worth it.

It always seemed to me that once the weather started to get warm, guys would be more than willing to pull their dicks out and use them on each other and there was always at least one "new" guy to our horny group every year. I remember the day my brother got on the bandwagon; he woke me up in the middle of the night and asked, "Hey - do you wanna do it to me?"

It never occurred to me that he'd find out about this hanging with his friends and, at first, I had said no and even threatened to kick his ass if he didn't stop bothering me and let me go back to sleep but he kept pestering me by talking and even throwing his pillow at me and even though I knew that if our parents found out, I'd be dead meat, I relented and we sucked and fucked each other into the wee hours of the morning.

I remember being in the Boy Scouts and those times we'd go to the local scout camp to either hang out in the cabins that were available or, in true Scout tradition, pitch tents. During the day, we had plenty of things to keep us occupied but when the sun went down, the dicks would come out. I remember my first "tent outing" and sharing a tent with one of the guys; even though we'd been told to get some sleep, we were in our tent talking about what we'd done that day and other stuff when he asked me, "Hey - you ever do it with a boy?"

I said that I had (but didn't tell him how many times) and it didn't surprise me one bit when he then asked, "You wanna do it to me?" We didn't get much sleep that night with all the cock sucking we were doing... or the next night when we added fucking each other to our list of nightly things to do. And we weren't the only ones... but even though we knew who was doing it, we really didn't talk about it.

I remember spending the night with my cousin; we hung out so much that everyone thought we were brothers. One night I was there because we had a judo contest the next day and we were up and kinda roughhousing a little and as we tussled, there was no way I was gonna miss his dick being hard - but I didn't mention it nor did he say anything about my own erection that I knew he had to be aware of.

We'd stopped wrestling with each other and we're trying to laugh quietly - we were supposed to be asleep - when he said, out of the blue, "Please... don't make me suck your ding dong!" I was floored - where the hell did that come from? I was so taken aback by this out of nowhere announcement that I couldn't say anything but he repeated his "plea" for me not to make him do that... and I said to myself, "What the hell..." and "made" him suck my dick. It became a game for us and one that, at the time, didn't make any sense to me at all but it was like I was his "master" and he was my "slave" and he'd beg and plead with me not to make him suck me off and swallow my stuff - then beg and plead to not make him turn over so I could fuck him in the ass or say the same thing about not making him lie there and get sucked off or to fuck me.

It was crazy and, of course, dangerous, with our grandparents and his mom in rooms that were on either side of his... but that made it much more fun.

For the other guys I hung out with - and as I've mentioned - we didn't need much in the way of an excuse to pull our dicks out and use them on each other and as if it was the most normal thing for us to be doing and we'd take any opportunity that came our way to do it. I remember one time I was at a friend's house and his parents had us helping them clean the backyard and my friend and I got all kinds of dirty. When we were finished, his parents told both of us to go take a bath and told me that they weren't sending me home looking and smelling like I just came from the city dump.

We went to his room, got out of our filthy clothes and giggled like girls as we ran to the bathroom naked; we filled the tub... and instead of getting clean, we were splashing around in the tub sucking each other's dick for a few before quickly fucking each other and, of course, we had to hurry before his parents started wondering what was taking us so long. Indeed, he had just cum in my ass when his mom knocked on the door and told us to get out of her tub and we'd better clean it, too. Which we did... but I did wonder if his parents even noticed that, um, neither of us was scrubbed clean.

Any time. Any place. With anyone. We knew that if those silly girls didn't want to give us their pussies to fuck, we could always do it to each other... and, yeah, we still did it even when the girls were giving us the pussy. Again, I think back to those days and it embarrasses the shit out of me to think about all the sex I'd wind up having and the many ways we'd find to do the nasty as we called it back then.

Sure, we'd always be wary about getting caught... but we were all shameless in anything we were doing and, no, none of us thought it strange for brothers and sisters to be doing it to each other... but we knew it was wrong.

We just didn't care.[/SIZE][/FONT]

Since we opened our sex lives up to others it seems she cannot get enough, I for one think it’s so hot knowing these guys get turned on by her. She is no longer shy about what she wants and acts out her desires almost daily. 2 of my buddies frequent our bed often and I am so used to seeing her getting what she needs. Alcoholics need booze, she craves dick. Last night after fucking her silly and still sleeping in the stink of our sex, her morning regular arrived for his morning quicky, which I kinda knew about but it never happened when I wa home,we talked briefly and I walked in with him he got naked and positioned her on her back and with no forplay or warning just shoved his ick in her and and after 10 minutes he filled her itch his morning load. Now her pussy is pulsating and I got rock hard and went in for sloppy seconds. The smells of him and I were overwhelming as it permiated the room and she lay moaning and skiing for more, he said shit look like I will be late this morning and once again mounted her. Seeing her petite little body take such a hard pounding is something I love most. As I said, I am having a hard time keeping up its her.

So. 2018 was a really good year for me, as a bisexual man.
Not many hookups, but my lovely wife and I made one really solid FWB.
The three of us played a lot last year.

He is vers , like myself. He really understands butt play, all facets. Makes a difference.
This is first time I have really fully explored bottoming with someone who had a clue.
Excellent communication skills, sensitive touch, good intuition.
Ethical slut too! So refreshing!

This has become a regular thing, because the play has been spectacular,
and the friendship has been great. That's where most guys fail.
It’s so hard to meet people on the same page. When it happens, it feels like a miracle.

Probably the most times I’ve ever been with the same guy. Interesting.
I think I am most comfortable with man-sex - when I am with my wife.

So there.

[FONT=arial][SIZE=4][FONT=verdana]When I came into my bisexuality way back in 1964, there was no such animal as top and bottom; you were either versatile... or "nothing" - you just didn't partake in such sexual fun. That guys would get older and, via experience, decide that it's better to give than receive - or better to receive than give - wasn't unusual... but every guy I knew growing up with this - and with one exception - was versatile and in what I'd say was as about as "fair and equal" as any of this can be; if you wanted someone to suck your dick, you knew you'd be sucking dick, too, and even if, privately, you didn't like sucking dick.

Likewise, if you wanted to fuck a guy's ass, you already had it in your mind and was prepared to be fucked in return and, again, even if it wasn't your favorite thing to do. You couldn't want to cum in a guy's mouth... then tell him not to cum in yours; ya didn't have to swallow it if you couldn't or didn't want to but you were gonna get a mouthful of youthful spunk in your mouth and no matter what you did with it after you got it. Otherwise, your first time with one of us would probably be your last time... and ya might not even get to complete that first time.

The only exception to our group of horny motherfuckers was the one guy who, today, would be a gay and submissive bottom; that dude loved to suck cock as much as he loved being fucked and to the point where if there were a few of us present and he was there, you could count on him taking on everyone who was there - and while the rest of us were doing each other while waiting for our turn with him and, believe me, it was very much and well worth the wait.

It was amazing in that if there was a way guys could have sex with each other, we pretty much did all of it, from one on one to full blown "orgies" to gang-banging each other - and especially our gay exception; it just was business as usual for us to create chains to suck or fuck so that no one would be all that left out of the action. Today, some guys drool over thinking about being in a MMM... and we did that as a matter of course and the way we'd do it is that everyone took a turn at being the guy on the bottom of the pile, the guy in the middle, and the "tail-end Charlie" guy; no one left without being fucked and everyone sucked cock and got sucked.

We had girls in our group... and they weren't all that different than we were in this and every last one of them ate pussy and got eaten - because that's just the way it was. When us guys started producing sperm, the girls changed up from being fucked in their pussies to being fucked in their ass because, duh, they didn't want to "get in trouble" (read this as getting pregnant) but they still wanted to be fucked. And they all sucked cock and swallowed spunk and did so eagerly.

To do it any other way just didn't make sense to us.

I see guys today coming right out of the gate and deciding that whenever they have their first time, they're gonna be a top or a bottom, have already decided what they're gonna do and not ever gonna do and I'd have to say that this is most likely due to the amount of information that's available today about this as opposed to the utter lack of information available back in 1964, which was pretty much limited to, "Boys do have sex with other boys" and "Boys aren't supposed to have sex with other boys."

I tell folks this... and they're shocked at the depths of our youthful debauchery and how we'd do shit that would make most grownups throw up or soil themselves. We were a unique group of kids who all discovered sex at almost the same time and, um, were bold enough - or insane enough - to get together and do it to each other and in every damned way it was possible.[/FONT][/SIZE][/FONT]

[FONT=arial][SIZE=3]I'd been having sex with guys since I was nine and just sucking and fucking my way through those early years of my life with near reckless abandon and to the point where it became as normal a thing to do as breathing is. One day, I was at the park across the street from my house and working on my basketballs skills and, in particular, working on my left-handed shots when a guy stepped onto the court and asked if he could join me. I said he could, we introduced ourselves, and for a while, we were just shooting around before playing several games of one-on-one (and I wrecked shop on him, by the way) until we were both drenched in sweat and damned near dehydrated.

I knew he wasn't from the hood so when he asked where he could get some water, the least I could do was take him home with me and water him - and myself - and I even gave him use of the bathroom to wash the funk and crusty, salty, sweat residue off, which he was very happy to do. After washing up, we sat and inhaled large quantities of nice, ice cold water and started talking about the other courts scattered throughout the city and the best ballers at each place and, in particular, he asked me if I knew about this one court that some city planner decided would be better placed within a wooded area near the outskirts of the city limits - and I knew the court he was talking about and it wasn't famous for the high level of basketball talent being displayed.

It was best known for what some guys were doing in the woods between games or while waiting to have next, namely, fucking and sucking each other. It was pretty common at this particular court given the amount of testosterone being let loose in the air as guys sought to imitate their favorite NBA players and especially the amazing Julius "Dr. J." Erving. He confessed that he'd spent some time in the woods between games and I just nodded knowingly because I'd spent some time in the woods as well... so I wasn't all that surprised when he asked if we could blow each other.

We stripped down right there in my living room, took a moment to look at and appreciate each other's cock, and got to sucking right there on the floor and I thought it was funny that we both were trying to outdo each other just like when we were playing ball and the race was on to see who could get the other guy to cum first. He lost that one, too, filling my mouth with a good amount of spunk but I wasn't too far behind him in that regard.

We disengaged and sat there grinning at each other as well as complimenting each other on our most excellent cock sucking skills and agreeing that after we gulp down some more water, we should do it again. We got at each other again, both of us kinda/sorta taking our time when he stopped sucking me and said, "You know, we should fuck each other - what do you think?"

I thought it was a great idea given that during our second round, we had our fingers in each other's butts. We literally flipped a coin to see who'd get fucked first - he lost that one, too, and after hauling ass to the bedroom to get some lube, I lubed us up and gratefully slide into his ass and fucked him until I exploded inside him.

"Damn, that felt so good!" he said as I withdrew and flopped over onto my stomach to await his penetration. A few seconds later, I felt his lubed finger sliding into my hole like the proverbial hot knife through butter and I couldn't wait to feel the head of his dick going in there when I thought, "He's gonna fuck me..."

And for the first time in my bisexual life, that thought seemed to bother me - a lot. It bothered me so much that I barely noticed when he got on top of me and pushed his dick into me and started fucking me nice and slow... and I felt so girly that I almost had a panic attack because in all the years that I'd been in this exact same position and situation, I'd never felt anything like this before.

He's fucking me, telling me how good my hole feels around his dick and that he loved it when I'd tighten my muscles around him - and something I was doing automatically because my mind was having a fit dealing with the fact that there was a guy fucking me and just like I was a girl... and, my god, it was feeling... too good? He had just the right amount of dick to nudge my prostate on the down stroke, sending those amazing orgasmic feelings through me and actually making me spill my seed despite not being hard. Still, my mind was kinda/sorta paying attention to how good he was fucking me but was still distracted about how it was making me feel in other ways.

Bitchy. Girly. Submissive. Vulnerable. He pulled out of me and flipped me onto my back, threw my legs up and open, and re-entered me... I and clung to him in a position that my body just didn't like being in - I could never get my hips to behave properly in the missionary position (and I still can't). I looked down between us and I could see his cock working in and out of me, could see the intense look on his face and I felt even more... feminine. Girly. Bitchy. Horribly vulnerable. One part of me want him to stop while another part of me wanted him to not stop making me feel this way.

He grunted; I felt his cock swell in my ass... then felt him releasing into me and, god, it was always, for me, the best part of being fucked but this time? Better than any other time I'd had my hole creamed... and it was very damned scary because I could feel myself losing control of my emotions and could hear myself begging and pleading for him to give me more dick, to keep fucking me.

Which, of course, now that he'd flooded my ass with sperm, wasn't going to happen. When he pulled out of me, I felt so empty and lost that I could feel the tears starting to well up in my eyes - what the hell is going on? That he leaned forward and planted a light kiss on my lips didn't make me feel better... but it also did. He got up and went upstairs to the bathroom and I just laid where I was, legs splayed open, his spunk oozing out of my ass; he returned with a soapy wash cloth and cleaned me up from cock to ass before going back down on me to get me good and hard.

I didn't think that was gonna happen; I was physically and, now, emotionally spent but I'll be damned if he didn't get me back up again before lubing me up so he could have a seat on my dick.

"Are you okay?" he asked once he had every inch of me that could go inside him.

"Yeah... no, not really," I said.

"You wanna stop?"

"No... you're already there so let's do it," I said, trying to shake that very weird feeling away. And it was fading away as I watched him riding my dick effortlessly; he was enjoying himself and, to be honest, I was enjoying it, too, right up until I heard him say, "God you're really making me feel so girly... and I love it!"

As he rode me - and I was yanking on his cock - his words hit me hard because that's exactly how I'd been feeling but that didn't seem to upset him as much as it shocked the living daylights out of me. It took a while but he eventually shot a load onto my stomach and I got around to shooting a load into him once more. We disengaged and stumbled up the steps for one last clean up and even though we were both telling each other how good the sex had been, I was very disturbed by what I'd felt and I just couldn't understand why, after all the years I'd been fucked, I'd never felt anything like this before.

And to this very day, I still don't know although I did get to understand the feeling and come to terms with it. But what I couldn't figure out was if he was the reason why I felt like a wanton, needy bitch in heat... or it was an evolution of sorts in my bisexuality or had I finally "grown up" enough for my mind and body to reveal and accept the real truth of what it meant to have sex with another guy?

I never was able to answer the question; my mind just accepted - finally - that it is what it is so instead of letting it bother me should I feel that way again (and I sure as hell did), just accept it; go with it. Revel in what it meant to be fucked and rejoice even more in that moment when the guy fucking me got to the bursting point and inseminated me...

And just as if I were a girl.[/SIZE][/FONT]

[FONT=arial][SIZE=3]When I come to this section to blog, I will do so with the intent of keeping it real; no bullshit, no pie-in-the-sky psychobabble that tries to sugar coat the things that two guys can do with each other. I learned very early that there are a lot of guys like me and many of them really don't understand what they're getting themselves into, don't understand why they're feeling the way they do about men and, often, buying into the current raft of shit that says if you're bisexual and you're not having a relationship with a guy, you can't be bisexual or if a guy ain't gonna be into you, well, you should just leave him alone until you find some kind of M2M romance.

I'm from the old school of male bisexuality; things like romance and dating - things that are more associated with interacting with women - was unheard of. There were two reason to get down and dirty with another guy: Because you needed to get laid and girls/women weren't of a mind to let you do that and you were enough of a friend with a guy where sharing your bodies with each other just made perfectly good sense or, as I like to say, "I won't tell if you won't, okay?"

Do you often feel guilty after being with a guy? I know why you feel that way and, surprisingly, it's something that a lot of guys don't know. Are you sitting on the bench and waiting to get in the game and even making "excuses" for why you haven't done what you know you want and need to do? I'll say a few things about that, too.

I've had 54 years (and counting) to learn these things and much more, from my own experiences and those of the untold number of men I've talked to over all these years and I learned them because I never lost my curiosity about why I'm the way I am and, then, why other guys are the way they are.

And this is so very serious a thing for a bi guy, to feed a guy a bunch of bullshit is irresponsible and someone has to "stand up" and keep it all very real because I also know what happens to guys who buy into the bullshit and then find their lives totally fucked up... and all because no one bothered to "sit them down" and be on the real about this.[/SIZE][/FONT]