Never intended to be bi just happened that way ,trying to quit.

**jimkimball** · Nov 3, 2024, 1:03 PM

I never thought about being bi when I was young it just wound up that way somehow ,I was afraid to complain about what was going on as a kid because the our families were friends,but a friend started sucking my cock when I was 12 , I started sucking him a year later and I don't know it I really liked it at first it was more peer pressure then anything but it was pushed on me daily if I was around him ,we always wound up in a 69 at some point during the day or just took turns sucking each other .
But after awhile it took root and it was like I needed it not so much after I first had a girlfriend but it was there always on my mind.
Thing I didn't know or figured til I was 15 was his Mom was having sex with him Rod and his brother Rick and their sister Rachel,
Rachel was a flat out whore had sex with boys or girls as much as possible Rod and I watched her go at with one of her girlfriend's one time ,it was pretty hot to watch ,Rod sucked my cock as I watched through a window.
I figured out their Mom was having sex with them because she would take Rachel or Rick by themself or with Rick and Rod at the same time into her room and lock the door and tell me to watch TV that she had to talk to them .
I slipped outside once and peaked in the window,she made them perform for her as she watch then she would have one fuck her while she sucked the other , she would have Rachel eat her or they'd 69 sometimes.
Once Rick started working she would just take Rod in her room and he'd eat her and fuck her .
It was really strange man to watch or just to think about .
But Rod sucked our other friends and his cousin Sam , but Rod told or ask the other if I sucked them or whoever,but soon it was around town and school and he blamed me for it getting out and I never told anyone til I was in my 40's .
We had a relationship for four years and it made me a sex junkie because I couldn't get enough I stuck to girls mostly after our relationship ended til I was 40 something I started again not that I wanted to I just felt I needed too after my wife and I slit up I got more into it again.
My 2nd wife had been molested by her uncle and a girl next door which she was just a whore I never knew til after she left that she was fucking everything she could when I was not around.
But any way being bi has costed me a lot of quality relationships because they hear I am bi or was bi as a kid and they go looking for the devil and find him and about me or they just figure I am seeing guys on the side and bale.
I tried a relationship with a few guys in the past 15 years but they didn't work out ,but now I just try to deny it and stay away from it and pray a lot to stay away but it's hard I am married again and told want to fuck it up.
She fucks me with toys and shit like that but isn't down with the bi or gay stuff at all ,but I am just trying to be good have been a long while since I had a guys cock and hope I can stay that way but I think about it a lot but always think about the cost.

**marine20** · Nov 3, 2024, 5:12 PM

i know you are pouring your heart out and i feel for you , but i can't help but get very excited thinking about that woman and her kids. double-edged sword i guess. my advice to you is , don't feel guilty for being bi. i did for many years, and it didn't do me any good. be yourself , and if that means you suck a cock once in a while , then by all means , enjoy it !

**chongster** · Yesterday, 11:20 AM

I never had a bi thought until I was in my 40s, Have tried to stop but just can't seem to. I love fucking ass and sucking cock. Yeah, the woman and her kids sounds pretty hot, sick but hot.

**KDaddy23** · Yesterday, 1:53 PM

This touched my heart - thanks for sharing it. Sometimes, being bi is a bitch and a half because it always feels like you're compelled to keep having sex both ways and, yeah, having moments where you're having more sex with guys than you are with the ladies. The hardest thing about being bi is... trying to stay on the heterosexual side of things since, as we all know, the other side can bring a lot of grief into your life that you'd rather not have to deal with.

But you can't just turn bisexuality off - you just have to learn to just walk away from dicks if you really want to quit. It's not impossible but just very damned hard; I think about the many times when I said that I was just going to stick to women for sex but found that the "call of cock" was so damned powerful and it was just my luck that I'd abstained from sex with men and.. all kinds of sexy guys wanted to do something with me and how do you say no when every damned part of you is saying, "Oh, hell, yeah!" And the next thing you know, you're in a 69 with a guy while cussing yourself out for going back on your promise not to do this.

I realized that you can't quit being bisexual - you can only stop having sex with either men or women and do your best to resist temptation. I still say, "Whatever happens, happens..." and don't give it anymore thought because I am bisexual for life and that's just how it is.